Oh my sleeping child.....

Another beautiful song by MLTR.. Never really understood its meaning till my sis came back home, from the US, after 2 years, carrying her little 8 month old son along with her..

Angels... Never knew what they could be like; before seeing my Shreyas, my Cheethu. The little thing, cried a lot when i picked him up. As soon as i carried him, something went through me. Some feeling.. Can't explain exactly what. But it felt beautiful, like as though i was made for this, to hold this little thing safe in my arms, take care of all his needs and give him every single thing that he needs and wants in life.

He was here for 3 months approximately. He is leaving now, in another 2 days time. I can't, rather don't, want to imagine what my life would be after he's gone. In these three months, i saw him mouth his first words, saw him trying to stand up, trying to walk, and actually taking his first few steps! Ive seen him sleeping, and everytime i did, the only song that played in my mind unbidden, was this one by MLTR. And i understood its true meaning. Before it was just a song that i loved the lyrics of, loved the music of. But now it was a feeling...

My little one has become my biggest de-stresser, after a hard day's work at office, after anything that went wrong with me. Just one look at his smiling face (even crying would do for that matter!!!), would drive away everything negative, everything rotten from my mind. He kept me awake almost every night, crying and screaming, but I still smiled as i woke up to cheer him up. Ive never shown the amount of patience i showed him, for anyone in my life. And i feel it was all worth it.

He's leaving now. Ill get back to my old routine. No de-stressing element anymore, till he comes back again. But ill keep with me the things I've learnt because of my angel.... :)

Songs for the soul....

One of them being this one which im currently listening to non-stop:

Lay a whisper on my pillow, leave the winter on the ground. I wake up lonely, theres air of silence in the bedroom and all around. touch me now, I close my eyes and dream away.

It must have been love but its over now. it must have been good but I lost it somehow. it must have been love but its over now. from the moment we touched til the time had run out.

Make-believing were together, that Im sheltered by your heart. but in and outside Ive turned to water like a teardrop in your palm. and its a hard winters day, I dream away.

It must have been love but its over now, it was all that I wanted, now Im living without. it must have been love but its over now, its where the water flows, its where the wind blows.

First blog

Hi there... My first blog. New to this, and so trying out how it works for me. I love the use of intellect and will be posting more blogs on this topic, but also on topics which affect me most. Trying to regain all that ive lost, and hope this will bring all that back to me....